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+ Beauty That Is The Rain +

Wed Sep 16, 2009, 11:19 AM
  • Mood: Bemused
  • Listening to: Anberlin - Adelaide
  • Reading: Anne Rice - The Vampire Lestat
  • Watching: The Rain coming down outside like Crying Angels
  • Playing: Jak 3
  • Eating: Invisible Chocolate
  • Drinking: Ice Water
I love the rain, and I'm pretty sure a lot of people do too.
This is very strange and amusing, I haven't felt this at peace in a long time. Yesterday, I woke up feeling as if a huge weight has fallen off of my shoulders. How I can back this up, I don't know, but I'm glad it's gone. Whether it will return, I know not, nor do I know what the weight was in itself.
Since the burden has gone, I've felt... Genuinely happy. I can't explain this as I confirmed just before, I'm sitting here pondering on just what that burden was. What was I sad about? I can feel it in the back of my mind, but it feels deep... the only way I can really explain it. Am I moving on, from something, or is this all just my body and mind playing tricks on me?
Looking over my new room, I can't help but think of how a new chapter in my life has begun and how I can keep it up now. I've always been so afraid of commitments and I feel ashamed of that fact, but listening to the rain and seeing it wash away the top layer of mud to reveal new is somewhat intoxicating in itself. The sheer coolness of the air, the breath of fresh air being bestowed upon the grass leaving a fresh scent.
Why am I just now seeing this, after nineteen almost twenty years of life. Why have I not been this truly happy in so many years, or was I ever this happy and why is it happening now? Did I change overnight somehow? I don't feel or look any different, other than I actually put on makeup yesterday which I forgot to wash off before I went to bed. It has been months since I wore makeup, it feels so... Nice, I feel pretty for once.
I miss the get-togethers with my friends, it's been so lonely without them. Sure I've seen Andy alot, but I miss them all dearly. Every single one of them, and I hope sooner or later we'll get to see each other like we used to. Life loses it's thrills without friends to share it with, why didn't I see this before. I want to get my driver's license, I want to get a steady job and apply myself into becoming a more independent person but how long this will take. I haven't a clue.
Pondering is always nice, but what am I exactly trying to let escape my mind? That I have no clue about, but I'm glad that I got it down somewhere to how I feel.

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: The far reaches of my extremely wierd mind. x3
  • Interests: Music, my friends, videogames, computers, drawing, my guitar.
  • Favourite movie: Sweeny Todd!
  • Favourite band or musician: Nightwish, Blue Foundation, many others
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock, some Pop.
  • Favourite artist: None (currently)
  • Favourite poet or writer: Edgar Allen Poe, Annette Kurtis Klause, Stephanie Meyer, Anne Rice, ect.
  • Favourite photographer: Bobby's Mom (I guess lol)
  • Favourite style of art: Randomness, Anime, Abstract.
  • Operating System: My Brain, and a Computer!
  • MP3 player of choice: Sony Walkman
  • Shell of choice: Seashells in the Nutshells!
  • Wallpaper of choice: Non-Flowery, bleh.... Flowers... What happened to traditional textured?
  • Skin of choice: Not Sunburnt, Ooooh the pain! -le gasp!-
  • Favourite game: Dirge of Cerberus, Guitar Hero 1-3, 80's, Rockband, and Primal
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2
  • Favourite cartoon character: GIR!
  • Personal Quote: sI'm thinkin' that oneip of this iced coffee was indeed too much for my hyperness level..
  • Tools of the Trade: My Attitude and my INHANCED intellect. (Maybe)

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:iconvampirisa:
Late thanks for :+fav:! :D

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:iconrosetta-nicole:
You're welcome! ^^

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And you could never understand the demons that I face
So go ahead and bat your eyes and lie right to the world
For with everything you are, you're just a little girl'
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:iconzilliah:
thanks for the watch?

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the dark side of the moon...
the cat's claws....
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:iconrosetta-nicole:
Your welcome! : D

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'Cause all of this is all that I can take
And you could never understand the demons that I face
So go ahead and bat your eyes and lie right to the world
For with everything you are, you're just a little girl'
-Trading Yesterday, 'Little Girl'
:iconrosetta-nicole:
Welcome! ^^

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'Cause all of this is all that I can take
And you could never understand the demons that I face
So go ahead and bat your eyes and lie right to the world
For with everything you are, you're just a little girl'
-Trading Yesterday, 'Little Girl'
:icondevi-apple15:
Thank you for the fav:D

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家族のために涙を流す悪魔がいてもいいんじゃない?don't you think so,Dante?
:iconrosetta-nicole:
You're welcome. ^^

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'Cause all of this is all that I can take
And you could never understand the demons that I face
So go ahead and bat your eyes and lie right to the world
For with everything you are, you're just a little girl'
-Trading Yesterday, 'Little Girl'
:icondigitaltvirus:
Thanks for the :+fav: :love:

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:iconrosetta-nicole:
You're welcome!

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'Cause all of this is all that I can take
And you could never understand the demons that I face
So go ahead and bat your eyes and lie right to the world
For with everything you are, you're just a little girl'
-Trading Yesterday, 'Little Girl'

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